Okay so I haven't been here and I haven't updated the travel blog.
I had my birthday though. That is a good thing.
Ummm.
Work has been awful but then it's pretty much been awful since the beginning of the year - hopefully the new job will start to change that but when you've had to go through so much crap you start to see rocks hidden in the velvet glove. I just hope I don't get so jaded and well.. devastated... that all I see are rocks thrown at me.
My doctor actually offered me anti-depressants today at my monthly Workers Comp check-up. I know that it would fix a lot of things by helping me sleep better and keep my mood on an even keel but I don't want to. I don't want to be "fixed". I have every right to be devastated, to be angry, to feel lost, to cry in front of every single person I work with.
Having my hearing damaged at work has meant I've done all of those things and I know it's changed my personality. The biggest irony is that it's also made me a better person. Going through it has taught me to see the silver lining in every single bloody cloud. The fact that I'm even saying that it's made me a better person, just proves how true that is.
Oh the irony.
At least that part of me hasn't changed.
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